I am really going insane .... i simply got no more energy for anything, first was the guy i like make me sad, and now is my best brother .... some thing bad happen to him, today when i saw the group that Eugene make for him .... i cry, i sit in front of my com and cry .... i already lost the guy i like and now i lost my best brother, we both are different .... but when i have problem he will know, i never say he will know i have problem ..... he can read my mind, i really dunno what to do ...... i was planning to have chalet on my birthday but i think i can drop the idea, i lost everything, i dun mind lost the guy i like .... but i dun wish to lost my best brother ..... i ask god why he must torture me like this .... he can break my hand or break my leg .... but not my heart ..... my heart is now in million million pieces and i dunno how to fix it back ..... I LOVE YOU HYKAL ...... my best brother hope after 3 years we still can be brother and sister ....