Today the minute i woke up .... i sit on my bed and start thinking about CRAPS..... Dave called and started scolding me .... he say this " Stephie i think you had lose your ability to cheer people up anymore ..... you are not the Stephanie that cheer your friends up and make them happy" i say this back and cry at the same time " FUCK LA CHEER WHO UP? WHO CARES MAN.... WHO DID I CHEER UP BEFORE" and he say "Stephie you forget your sotong friend le ma? you every time blog for him because he always emo" after a moment of silence and i say " Dave why i every time cheer people up and they dun really care about me .... i am not saying about Eugene i saying about the guy i like ..... his one sms can make me happy like fuck .... but his one sentence can make me emo like fuck .... Dave wo hao bu rong yi den make myself happy again and now i am back to my emo life " we talk about 3 hours den we stop talking le because i feel like going to faint due to head pain ........ i woke up and drink milk den go back to my bed and start thinking of CRAPS again .... sms Edwin until half way den stop den go back sleep ...... feeling sad today and hope tmr will be good .....