Stephie now feeling emo and sad again ....

Stephie: I feel like a spare tyre
James: Why do you think so?
Stephie: Every time my GUY friends sad or bored will call me and talk to me, but when they have GF ... they totally forgotten me ....
James: Because they think that you are just a SPARE !!!
Stephie: FUCK OFF ~~~
James: *Pat my head* Joking la =D
Stephie: James, i miss him ..........

Every second takes him further and further away from me ..... I want to go after him ...... why couldn't I just tell him I love him? Instead, I say nothing ...... I do nothing ...... I just stand and watch him disappear, not having the courage to call him back, a tear runs down my cheek ..... somehow, I know, deep in my soul, I will never see him again .... my heart aches with sadness, i wish i could get past this ..... the darkness isn't fading .... I will never find a love like you,where i will do anything like i did for you!! At night i breakdown and cry and sometimes i dun even know why ..... my loneliness is driving me insane .... and I am thinking now .... if one day I saw you in the street, should I call you or will you call me? should I wave at you or will you wave at me? if i call you and wave at you .... will you bother to smile at me? ha ha i dun think so ...........