Brought shirt and pant that cost $250 ...... still not happy .... brought belt that cost $96 also not happy ..... i think i am really going insane .... i just simply cannot happy already ..... birthday is just one hour and yet i am not happy .... this year is my worse year of my life ..... so many unpredictable things happen to me .... i really hate growing up ...... why must i face so many things ALL ALONE ...... people who i care are just simply ignore me .... and treat me like shit .... i am tired already .... feel so fuck up .... super fuck up .... i think in this world the only person that love me is my family members ..... they care for me .... my others friends are all shit ..... forget my fucking birthday ..... i think my birthday is nothing already .... is just a day that i am born and came into the world of darkness .... really darkness .... my world is back and white .... no colours anymore ..... i give up .... really give up ..... I LOVE YOU BOY ...... AND I HATE 8 NOV .....