Plan to find Beverly for dinner ..... but my mother is cooking dinner .... so never find her ..... was at home the whole day ..... woke up at 1pm .... den watch TV .... play com ..... watch DVD ...... and play com again .... feel like no life ..... and my head is killing me again .... it hurt me non stop ..... the pain is very pain ...... the pain make me dun feel like do anythings ..... just want to sleep on my bed ...... i just now found out that the guy i love his birthday had over ..... 14 march ..... i feel so useless .... i keep saying that i love him i love him .... but i dun even know when is his birthday and what is his surname ..... and how is his life ..... i only can know how is his O level result thru MY FRIEND ...... i feel very very ...... i dun even know how to use word to describe my feeling .... i only know that i can love someone more den 1 year ..... and i going to love him for 1 year already ...... and i will make this 1 year to many many year ...... because i swear .....