just end my life now .....................

2010-04-11T14:57:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!

I AM BACK!

Many things happen for he pass few months. Anyway I realise many many things. ITE and POLY relationship really can't last long. But is ok. I am happy with what I have now. I had a bad start in 2010 and hope I will have a good end in 2010. Anyway Jinn you are the reason I open back my blog :)

2010-01-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

School suck ..... first photo with KPHER! 2010!

2010-01-04T22:06:00.004+08:00

Leave me when you want .... but make it fast .... because i need time to recover .... i need my whole life to recover .... even when i am death i still haven recover .....

2009-12-23T16:07:00.006+08:00

Photo shall say everything ..... hahaha CK YOSHI JO BEV AND er ..... JAY CHOU!

LOVE YOU

2009-12-13T02:14:00.004+08:00

HOLIDAYS!!!!!! LIFE LIFE LIFE!!!!

Love you more each day.

2009-12-09T02:13:00.002+08:00

They say follow your heart, but when your heart is in so many pieces. Which way are you to follow?

2009-12-05T12:18:00.002+08:00

How I wish I can just shut my mother mouth up .... she simply making my life more and more miserable ... hate to stay at home ..... hearing her nag NON STOP ...... when she is not at home .... the house so peaceful .... no shouting at all ..... HOLIDAY IS HERE! PARTY TIME! School took away my life .... now i have my LIFE back again ..... those who got no life .... fucking get a life man ..... GIRLS let go crazy on 19 DEC!!!!!!

2009-12-02T22:56:00.003+08:00

Finally every things is settle .... I really love Tini and Maria ..... cannot believe what had happen .... and I shall not say much .... Thank You Maria and Tini ...... learn this from Maria .... Whatever happen life have to go on ...... hahhahaha

2009-11-29T14:50:00.001+08:00

KPHER!

2009-11-22T15:13:00.004+08:00

Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it is not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them ... What did i done wrong? Brother tell me ITE and POLY cannot be together for long. But I Love You

2009-11-17T08:50:00.003+08:00

My mood are like roller coaster .... what happen to me? Can't sleep in the night. Dave say I am crazy ..... ha ha let see how many days I can don't sleep. Will be working today. I am going to make myself tired. I Miss You. Want To See You :(

2009-11-10T23:07:00.001+08:00

School Suck but Life's Good :D Love You!

2009-11-10T23:00:00.003+08:00

Maria is sick ..... she did not came to school today ..... school is as usual bored ..... took photo using Tini Laptop .... Holiday faster come please!

2009-11-04T20:31:00.002+08:00

I want to help you ... but I just dunno how to :(
Sorry ~~~~

You are my baby love, my baby love

2009-11-03T21:54:00.006+08:00

3 hours break! ..... Went Airport .... took video at T3 kids Corner ..... love to hang out with them ..... SO CRAZY! watch the video like hundred times la ..... hahahha ..... SO SO FUNNY! talk to Dave on phone for 3 hours .....

Dave is my 10 years friend!

Dave: What you want for your birthday?

Steph: Erm .... Personal Jet, Red Porsche, Inuka and Sheba

Dave: YOU THINK I PRINT $$! WTF IS INUKA AND SHEBA

Steph: DEN DUN ASK WHAT I WANT LA! IS POLAR BEAR ~~~~~

Dave: SIAO! HOW I GET POLAR BEAR!

Steph: DEN DUN ASK!

Dave: Dun let me see you.

Anyway .... Birthday is coming! 4 nov brother and friends, 5 nov God sister Jo (REAL GOD SISTER), 6 nov Kpher and his CLASSMATES!!!! 7 nov Tini and her baby, Connie, Maria, Beverly, Steph's Boy( on that day den know who) :P 8nov Family and Reuben Family ....

2009-11-01T23:18:00.005+08:00

These are the people that make me look forward to school .....

I know some people might think why I am from AA but I hang out with AB ..... you know why? because THEY ARE FUN AND LOVING and I LOVE THEM!

2009-10-31T01:09:00.002+08:00

Sick of seeing her face.
Sick of hearing her voice.
Sick of staying in her house.

How I wish I can get out of this place .... How to don't hate her when I already did? I cannot believe my brother tell me she care for me that why she bother to scold me .... checking my bag and my room? I don't know that is called CARE? She don't even respect me? HOW CAN I GOD DAM RESPECT HER? I am so so so so tired .... FUCKING TIRED. HATE THINGS WHEN THEY ARE NOT IN MY WAY! FUCK THE WORLD!

2009-10-26T21:51:00.002+08:00

Plastic Surgery?

2009-10-25T01:09:00.002+08:00

EUGENE QUEK IS BEST OF BEST!

18th year old still so kiddo =.=

2009-10-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

Night Safari !!!!!

2009-10-24T22:41:00.003+08:00

Eugene Quek your hair style so WILD

Yesterday accompany Jinn to BQ to do things and after that we walk around BQ ..... first time go BQ in the afternoon .... EUGENE QUEK JIA WEI is really the world nicest man ..... Hope the girl he love will not break his heart and love him more then anything .....

2009-10-19T21:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went shopping with Kpher ... brought RED ADIDAS BAG and 2 COTTON ON TOPS! every time go out with Kpher sure buy thing ..... Chilling out at Coffee Bean and Kpher teach me how to use twitter .... IS SO DAM COOL! LOVE TWITTER! anyway school was not so bad today .... meet up Eugene Leon Clemen and Bin for dinner ..... Chat awhile at Coffee Bean den walk back home ..... I really love you more each day .... and today i know you more by a bit :)

2009-10-17T16:10:00.002+08:00

Ferlysyier: Baby I love you too!

Dave: I think he went swimming by itself again :D

Ah Wei: Still working at Taka, anyway where you die to?

Nameless: Single. Who the heaven are you?

ETSN: I MISS KILL LIKE CRAZY!

Nameless: I dun think he is lucky.

2009-10-17T12:07:00.004+08:00

I going crazy! I can't sleep at all ..... got myself burn on the finger yesterday ..... IT HURT LIKE CRAZY!!! I am scare of many things ..... i dun wan to lose anything ... i just wan to be your friend .... hate to lost contact with you ..... lost it once dun wish to lose it again .... Love Saturday and Sunday because got no school ...... Ma Hal Kita

2009-10-15T23:58:00.005+08:00

School suck totally! Was late for 30 minutes ..... but is ok better den never go school ..... sleep in almost all the lesson ..... I am so so tired due to my insomnia .... from the first day of my holiday i every night went out ..... and sleep in the morning and afternoon ...... now i having a hard time to sleep early and wake up early ...... my life is back to BORED! SO BORED MAN. Watch movie with Anony ..... sleep awhile den woke up again .....but anony did not realise ...... ha ha anyway tomorrow i start at 8am and end at 10am ..... WOOHOO!!!! I Love You

2009-10-14T00:25:00.003+08:00

Last year my birthday you never celebrate with me because you got court ..... this year you totally MIA from my life MISSING! ..... Hykal do you know i miss you? do you know Connie had a boy friend already? do you know i got bully by some people? Where are you? You just vanish in the world without telling me ..... I really miss you Hykal ~~~~

2009-10-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

Miss my bitchy girls!

I'll do whatever you like

2009-10-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

That day jamming with Dave he sang some Japanese song but i only can remember he say this ......

you told me to live
as if you were to die tomorrow feel
as if you were to be reborn now face
as if you were to live forever

2009-10-08T21:09:00.003+08:00

Busy playing and no time to update ..... plenty of photos to upload but way to tired to do ..... 3 more days left ...... One message can make me happy ..... Could this mean everything or nothing wasting my time just thinking of you.

2009-10-05T00:57:00.003+08:00

Taking this like eating sweet .....

2009-10-01T03:14:00.002+08:00

I am afraid to sleep ..... because I might not be able to see the each Beautiful Tomorrow.

2009-09-28T01:33:00.003+08:00

Cannot BQ anymore ~~~~ Holiday is ending soon ..... WILL MISS BQS! that include My brother, Dave, Jason, Alex, Jane, and more ..... i swear will miss going supper with Eugene Liang Bin Marcus ...... MISS MARCUS DRIVING!!!! CRAZY!!!! ha ha hope the coming Chalet will be fun ..... as this will be the last 2 weeks of Holiday that i can spend with them ....

Hope you love it!

Ma Hal Kita

2009-09-24T00:11:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night Marcus fetch me home for dinner .... den went dinner again with Leon Marcus Eugene Liang Bin Ben Jo ...... Marcus driving is CRAZY! hahahaha ...... but I LOVE IT! anyway never sleep for more den 20 hours and the best part is i am going out again later ..... ha ha MY FREEDOM IS BACK! NO MORE GROUNDED! hahahaha and and KPHER COMING BACK SOON! MISS HIM LOT LOT WOR!

2009-09-21T18:42:00.002+08:00

Raining non stop! And i am stuck at home for the FIRST TIME of this wonderful holiday ..... is ok tmr i will be out with Gibson and Van ..... hope i am able to sneak out ..... today i fail to sneak out because both my parent was at home the WHOLE DAY ...... Kpher is leaving Singapore soon and i cannot get to meet him ..... will miss him like mad ..... Kpher take care when you are in Guang Zhou .... lastly I WILL MISS YOU KPHER! ENJOY and please go in 1 piece come back in 1 piece .......

2009-09-14T01:41:00.004+08:00

1 week of my holiday had gone and i think i spend it very harmfully ..... 1 week never sleep more than 10 hours .... sooner or later i think i will faint ...... but is ok i think is worth it ..... holiday are suppose to be fun ....... today went out with Kpher ...... SHOPPING SPREE!!! had PastaMania at United Square ...... brought legging at Uniqlo, water bottles at Adidas and Shirt at cotton on ...... and for the very first time we went shop around Ion not the basement but the HIGH END SHOP on the upper floor ..... walk in and out but never buy anything ...... HAHA! dinner at Suntec Aston and Cake at Cafe Cartel ...... overall I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!!!!! but the sad thing is Kpher is leaving for Guang Zhou next week =(

2009-09-09T23:11:00.004+08:00

SCHOOL OUT!!!!!!!

Time to get a life people ...... doing crazy stuff with crazy friends ..... yesterday after POA exam went back home for a shower den meet Beverly ..... make our way to town ..... Dinner at Fish and Co with Beverly and Van ..... took cab down to Boat Quay to meet my brother ..... since ages i went boat quay with my brother ...... after i make my last call to my brother and ask where is him ..... my phone die =.= ..... no battery = no photo ..... WASTED!! but is ok .... i believe there will be plenty of chance ...... LOVE MY LIFE NOW!

2009-09-06T20:50:00.005+08:00

All best to all of my Pretty Sexy Girlfriends and my Handsome Hot Boyfriends ..... not to forget

SAMSUNG GIRLS! (bring your lucky ribbon charm)

2009-09-05T22:19:00.003+08:00

Baby i will be here with you and I Love You

2009-09-03T21:03:00.005+08:00

Studying Photo!!!

2009-09-01T12:41:00.005+08:00

When suntec with Kpher .... memories flash back ..... ha ha! watch UP and Turning Point .... i still cannot believe i fall asleep during UP ..... after watching movie .... went brother came and pick me up with my daddy car ..... ha ha the first thing i do when i board the car ..... FASTEN MY SEAT BELT!

冷気膚触り如く喫煙暖める自分オペレーションズリサーチべき麿・暖かい我心

2009-08-30T13:57:00.005+08:00

Yesterday went out with Family and Cousin and Dave! dinner at some forest restaurant .... shopping at OG ..... ha ha got two pairs shoes .... Black and Red! supper at Kallang Mac .... and the night life haven end ..... went to Aunt house ... Adults play Majiong ...... Kids like US (referring to Dave Brother Prince and Me) watch movie, play Wii, poker card, talk crap ..... reach home around 6am .... and i took cab home alone ..... Dad and Mum still playing ...... Studying later with my POA Tutor .....

良い be 愉快又銘記麿 be 御主人恋仲

2009-08-30T13:52:00.002+08:00

STUDY STUDY!!!

2009-08-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

Lines of Laugh!

2009-08-29T02:23:00.002+08:00

OFA was GREAT! hope i can at least get a HIGH B! Today after school went back home to shower den meet Hakim to study awhile ..... Geylang Serai with Kpher Shery and Jayvier .... enjoy being with them .... eat things that i never get to eat before ..... they say i am like a tourist =.= ..... Train back to Tampines with Shery ..... ha ha Gossip about many things ..... and i feel like going KBOX! the song i will sing will be GUARDIAN ANGEL! Hahahahaha Kpher Jayvier and Shery should know what i am ..... OH YA! we never get to eat Kebab :(

2009-08-27T21:19:00.002+08:00

1 more week to go den i will be free from school .... i am going to spend my holiday wisely .... i cannot afford to waste my time as i dun have much time ..... going to sleep late and wake up early .... hate to sleep because i am afraid i will not be able to see the beautiful tomorrow .... this few days i have been studying like mad ...... POA and BEV ~~~~ at least a D please! anyway Kpher gave me a new photo to put in my file and ask me to keep the UGLY ONES at home -.- i am not going to put the old one at home in fact i will put them together in my file! OFA tomorrow ... Tini should be having headache right now ..... ha ha she hate OFA!

2009-08-23T20:38:00.003+08:00

Went Orchard to look for Kpher and had dinner with him at Jack Place ...... 2 more weeks to Holiday ..... Can't wait for it! Ton at friends house and GET MY LIFE BACK! hahaha ~~~~

2009-08-22T01:54:00.004+08:00

My brother pass his driving test ..... finally he can drive me to school ..... Do you know when i got his call telling me he pass his test ..... you are the first one i feel like telling ..... but is OK ..... ha ha FINALLY MY STUPID BROTHER PASS! after school went to study and after that went to Eugene house to meet him .... dinner at Tampines 1 and catch a movie after that ..... now is 2am and i just got home from Eugene place ..... wanted to stay at his house but mother dun let ...... anyway going to his house tomorrow. Maybe? Jinn Quek shout my name so LOUD today! and I shouted back "FUCK U I MISS YOU SIA" -.- hahaahahahah

2009-08-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

Cannot believe i hate school until feel like quiting ..... trying hard to suit in myself in the class and school .... but always fail .... exams are coming and i want it to come so badly .... so i can end this course and get out of this school ..... Anson called me just now in school and i shouted this "How will i get better if this go on?" ..... everyday i look forward to school end .... so i can go back to my old self ..... i am so tired putting on retail face ..... that is so not me man ..... anyway after school went to meet Kpher and his classmates for lunch at 4pm ... after that went back home .... Connie! i going to meet PRINCE later hahaha ...... tomorrow have to go school and meeting out to STUDY POA!

I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
Ma Hal Kita

2009-08-18T21:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out with Kpher and Jun Hao ...... went to Tampines 1 to get Kpher shirt and took train down to Orchard Ion for shopping ..... realise there are so many new shop over there ..... visit Body Shop and got example of Deep Sleep ..... ha ha went home and try out and is work man ..... i was so Deep Sleep ..... never dream of anythings at all .... I am so going to buy it ..... LOVE Khristopher Phua FACEBOOK Status and BLOG POST!

2009-08-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

Tapping mac wireless ..... but using "Blackie" to blog ..... 2 more days to go and i will be back to school as per normal ..... not going to skip lesson .... may be some lesson i have to skip to go some where ..... Talk to Jinn Quek just now in school ..... realise that he having problem that i cannot help to solve ..... hope he will be fine and get over .... i miss my home ..... never get to stay at home for long ..... LADY GA GA IS SO COOL! FUCK OFF SHE SAY! hahaha

2009-08-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

Thanks Tini and Connie today for coming down ....... and FETCH me to school but never go school ..... hope Maria's mother is fine and Tini is fine too ...... Connie i don't think she need my fine ..... haha because she is way to crazy about DIRTY THINKING ..... Ribbons~~~~

2009-08-11T01:08:00.004+08:00

Went out with Jayvier and Jun Hao .... went to watch movie ..... den head to OC ..... BUY flower from OC ..... ha ha we BUY! JH should know what i mean ..... went to AMK to meet Kpher for dinner .... ha ha meet Nicholas too ...... stupid talks at Mac ..... ha ha Nicholas look nice with is GOLD hair ...... took cab home with JH ..... tmr after school had to rush to Orchard ...... Life is short ... so people love yourself ok?

2009-08-08T14:22:00.002+08:00

Walking around aimlessly by myself
Breathing a faint sigh, my breath turns white
Seasons change, and in this fleeting season..
My tears fall for no reason
"Even now, I still love you

Falling sadness transforms into pure white snow
I'm always looking at the sky above me
Before this body disappears, I want to reach the wish I have now
Once more, I want to hold you
How many times have we not understood and hurt eachother
But even at those times, we were still gentle

Engraved on the ring that you suddenly gave back to me..
Was our promise that will never come true
"Even now, I remember..

These far off thoughts are just brilliant flashes in my memory
I wanted to be next to you
Even though I can't see you anymore, I'll always be next to you
I never want you to change

I can't erase those last tears that you showed me [from my memory]

In your heart, if I disappear
along with all these snowflakes
I want to bloom [in your heart once again]

Don't forget the warmth of us being close together, and hugging
Don't forget even if you love someone else
I'll never let go [of the memory] of when I heard your voice last and so..

I just want to fall into a deep sleep
Continuously falling sadness transforms into pure white snow
I'm always looking at the sky above me
Before this body disappears, I want to reach the wish I have now
I want to hold you once more"I want to hold you once more"

2009-08-08T14:16:00.002+08:00

Atemonaku hitori samayoi arukitsuzuketa
Kasuka na toiki o tada shiroku somete
Utsuri kawari yuku kisetsu no sono hakanasa ni
Wake mo naku namida ga koboreta
"Ima mo aishite iru..."

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete

Wakari aenakute nandomo kizutsuketeita
Sonna toki demo itsumo yasashikute
Fui ni watasareta yubiwa ni kizamareteita
Futari no yakusoku wa kanawanai mama ni
"Ima mo oboeteiru..."

Toozakaru omoide wa itsumademo mabushi sugite
Motto soba ni itakatta
Mou nido to aenai kedo itsumo soba de sasaete kureta
Anata dake wa kawaranai de iteSaigo ni miseta namida ga kisenakute

Kono shiroi yukitachi to issho ni kiete shimattemo
Anata no kokoro no naka ni zutto saite itai kara

Yorisotte dakiatta nukumori wa wasurenaide ne
Chigau dareka o aishitemo
Saigo ni kiita anata no koe o kono mama zutto hanasanai mama
Fukaku nemuri ni ochitai

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete
"Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete.."

2009-08-08T13:48:00.002+08:00

This Sunday having family outing at East Coast Park ..... I want to ask you go but i think there is no need a need now ..... anyway yesterday i went shopping alone ...... YES alone ..... ha ha and i found out that Singapore is so so big ...... til i can get lost ...... went to Bugis to get thing but dun have ..... went to Suntec also dun have ..... went Orchard and FINALLY HAVE ....... walk around Orchard went to find Beverly and Jackson ..... he is asking me back to work ...... ha ha guess he miss the Bitching Time i have with him .... walk from Paragon to PS ....... went to the shop where i first got my key chain i ask the salesperson whether do they still sell the key chain she told me only have 1 set each ...... i am so lucky to have the ONLY ONE ...... ha ha ...... saw Xue Lun!! OMG he hair is so short ..... but still look hot! Xue Lun dun worry ..... girls still will run up to you ..... took train to Cityhall den walk back to Bugis because forget to get 1 more things ...... got lost between Cityhall and Bugis ...... in the end i manage to find my walk out to Bugis ...... yesterday i was so so so tired ..... leg nearly break into many many pieces ..... shopping alone is fun ...... TOOK CAB HOME!!!

2009-08-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

I am afraid that i cannot see TOMORROW ...... So i will try no to sleep ..... ILY

2009-08-05T23:51:00.001+08:00

Will Love People Who Love Me! Falling In Love With You ~~~~

2009-08-04T23:08:00.004+08:00

FUCK OFF LA ....... I really hate this world ...... making me so so sick ...... everyone is so fake .... no one is true to me .... everyone is lying to me ..... include YOU ..... and i dunno what wrong with my eye ..... get wet so easily ..... think contact len ...... YES contact len ....... PLEASE SAVE ME! If you want to Fuck me off just say ...... your action speak louder den word ..... I SWEAR NO ONE CAN HURT ME ...... STEPHANIE HONG IS STRONGER DEN YOU THINK ..... WILL NOT BE SO WEAK ..... I SWEAR ......

2009-08-04T16:41:00.002+08:00

I am sitting at staircase tapping other people wireless to go to Internet ..... cannot go home until 6pm .... got no where to go so i sit here and wait ..... just now got a new SURPRISE from Anson ...... will not talk much about it .... only can say life is getting more and more worse ..... everything is ending soon .... real soon ..... everything will fade away ..... Arrhythmia??? BULL SHIT

2009-08-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

Everyday happen new things ..... everyday is a new me ..... done with my CMS Part 3 script ..... Saturday went to see doctor and got new surprise ...... Sunday went to dinner with Eugene and Ferris ..... and on the way back i got a SURPRISE again ..... seem like everyday is a surpise for me ....... Never fail to make me happy

2009-07-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

YOU LIGHT UP MY DAY!

2009-07-25T00:08:00.008+08:00

Skip school today ..... cannot wake up and lazy to wake up :x ..... accompany kpher to do his stuff ..... After that Ferris came and meet us ...... Beverly came after him ...... to cut short .... TODAY ROCKS!!!

2009-07-23T00:05:00.002+08:00

Come on Stephanie you got to buck up and start to sleep early and stop being late for class .... i am trying very hard to love school .... trying to mix with my classmates ... the truth is .... i cannot do it ..... i just feel like sleepy whenever i step into the class now days ...... people around me are all falling sick ...... included me .... sometime i feel cold under the hot sun ..... OK i know is mad ...... anyway i miss Baby Reuben ........ will not be able to see him this week i think ......

2009-07-21T19:13:00.003+08:00

School was great with fiona around ..... ha ha she and her dirty topic ..... ha ha can really light up my day ...... i am glad to have a group of friends in my class .... because of them i went school ...... Ferris Tini Maria Connie ..... not to forget Kpher and Fiona .......

Don't leave me please?
Life Suck!
I am not mad!

2009-07-20T23:56:00.004+08:00

Saturday went movie with Kimmy Eugene Marcus Liangbin and Ferris ...... watch Harry Potter ..... Sunday went to see doctor for some reason and my dad get me a Samsung Jet ..... love it man ..... school was fine today .... hope it can be like today ..... peacefully end school without anything happen ...... my mood can be high or low .....

2009-07-15T22:25:00.004+08:00

Finally i get to watch movie and had dinner with Beverly ....... so so happy .... in GV there are this Jackpot machine .... so we went to try out luck and GUESS WHAT? we got JACKPOT ..... Superstar Libra 1 for 1 Offer ..... at first i thot was free sia ..... make me so happy until Beverly tell me is 1 FOR 1 ..... must pay $$ de ...... -.- cheat my feeling ..... anyway we watch The Haunting in Connecticut ..... the movie really freak me out ..... thanks to Connie all the scary part i see and the not scary want she see .... and Stupid Beverly .... tap me in the middle of the movie and give me a shock .... overall the show is nice and is based on true story .... which make me scare .... had PL den went home le ..... Good Day after school but not during school

2009-07-15T00:49:00.002+08:00

I MISS WENNY!!

2009-07-14T01:08:00.003+08:00

Saturday went Cosplay with Vincent Terry Nicholas and Ferris ...... Vincent is my cousin husband .... and as for Terry and Nicholas they are Vincent's friends ..... this year Cosplay is so disappointing ..... not much people cosplay ..... after that went to Vincent's brother chalet ..... around 7pm daddy came and fetch us to dinner ..... ha ha and the most funniest thing was about my daddy ..... ha ha he is the world super cute daddy..... thanks to him ..... my Saturday was fun ..... love my daddy ......

ps: learn this from my daddy ..... "Ask him fuck the spider" ...... ha ha ha ha ~~~~

2009-07-11T01:28:00.002+08:00

Mas: Thank you sayang .... i will try to love school .....

Chi Wai: I will feel more stress lor -.-

Xiu Yin: Ha ha .... yes darling i remember you ..... i miss you too =D

Kay: Oh ok ..... thanks for your information

2009-07-11T01:13:00.004+08:00

Stephanie Hong 2009

Stephanie Hong 2008

Hello people ...... today went for OFA at 11am ...... and only got 2 people ..... ha ha Hidaya and me ..... feel sad for Mr Quek -.- after that went for my interview ...... feel scare at first ..... but overall not bad ..... hope can get in and so can go oversea with Kpher and Ferris ...... after school went to visit Prince Reuben ..... was raining so heavy ..... had dinner and went to Giant and Ikea ..... going to Cosplay with Vincent and Ferris tmr ...... ha ha .... going to take many photo with Vincent big big CAMERA ..... anyway had a good day today ..... haha ..... is there a big different in me?

2009-07-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

Did not attend POA today ...... can't wake up at all ....... watch Michael Jackson Live from MTV Asian .... i didn't know MJ was so generous ...... seeing each of his close friends came up and gave short story about him can make me cry RIP MICHAEL JACKSON ....... school suck really apply on me ..... i did try to look in the mirror and tell myself " Stephanie today going to be a good day " but this dun work on me at all ..... i really hope that tmr will really be a GOOD DAY for me .... i got enough of shit since Day 1 of school reopen until now .....

2009-07-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

THANKS TO KPHER I HATE RAIN NOW!!!!! HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!

2009-07-06T20:14:00.002+08:00

I do love sunny day ..... but i feel calm when is raining ....... i love the rain ..... make me calm down and think of things ..... first day of school ..... i feel so weird going back to school ..... not so close with my classmates expect for Ferris Tini Maria Connie Jing Mei and Alyssa .... i have ZERO motivation to school ...... finding motivation to school ..... i feel so stress in ITE ...... project and homework ...... HATE HATE HATE!!!!!

2009-07-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

Getting out of HELL JAIL was the best day of my life ...... yesterday went out with Ferris ..... suppose to do POA and BEV ..... but library was full with hardworking human ..... so we decide not to do and walk around T1 and TM ....... went for arcade session awhile .... den head to watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen ..... the robot all so cool ..... and Bumble Bee so cute ....... after that make my way back to Hell Jail again ..... at least Thursday was better then Tuesday ...... today went Bugis and had lunch with Kpher and Ferris ...... after that went to collect Ferris laptop ...... brought my brother present at Velo city ...... Kpher left to work and Ferris and i took bus down to Suntec ....... walk around shop around ...... took bus back home ..... today we did not take train at all ...... cause recession ..... LOVE IT WHEN OUT OF HELL JAIL

2009-07-01T13:44:00.004+08:00

Thanks to my friends around me ...... i am much more better ..... i realise that those not so close friends of mine care for me more den my close friends ...... feel sad but happy too ..... thanks Kpher for the call ..... thanks Ferris for the message ....... this two HOT GUY never fail to make me happy and brighten up my day ...... Mas Beverly Tini Yvonne thank you girls ...... love you girls ..... and miss you all .....

Mas: Thanks mas i will be strong .....

Beverly: Ha ha i am very very relax already lor .....

Tini Wong: Sayang thank you ..... we shall live on to a better life ..... must be happy! YES ignore what they say! =D

Yvonne: I love you Yvonne ..... you surprise me with a tag ...... thanks i feel much much better

2009-06-30T12:01:00.004+08:00

Sleep a 3am plus ....... and woke up at 5am ..... going crazy again .... every time when i have a good time ...... she will spoil it ...... i really feel bad to leave my friends ..... wanted to go out with them .... but in the end .... i have to back out ..... and this is the second time i ditch them ...... if they hate me or leave me ..... i will not hate them ...... i really want to leave this house so badly ...... i dun wish to quarrel with her everyday ...... i really dun wan ....... and no one know what really happen between me and her ...... even me myself also dunno ..... what have i done wrong? if she hate me that much ..... why not kill me? i will forgive her for killing me ....... calling me CHEAP ..... is that the way Mother call their daughter ...... i am so tired of talking to her ..... i just wan peace .... THAT WHAT I BLOODY ASK FOR ONLY! staying at home i dun get peace ...... she will nag and shout for no fucking reason ..... i really hope i can go back to my own home .... which is Balam Road ...... the home which i had spend 13 years ...... HATE THIS COLD HOME! STUPID AND USELESS TAMPINES HOME .... dun feel warm at all .... all i feel is NOTHING! i am afraid of going out ..... once i step out of this house ..... i dun think i will come back ....... how long am i going to live in this COLD HOUSE? feel like going oversea and study ..... i really hate her ..... really hate ..... i know people will say that she bring me to this world ...... she 10 months pregnant ..... BLEAH BLEAH~~~~ and i will only reply ..... SHE BRING ME TO THIS WORLD TO TORTURE ME! FUCKING HELL ....... SHE WILL NOT SCOLD MY BROTHER ..... SHE ONLY SCOLD ME ...... SHE KNOW THAT I WILL NOT SAY BACK HER .... SHE KNOW I WILL NOT RUN AWAY FROM HOME BECAUSE OF MY DAD ...... I REALLY WILL GO MAD ..... FUCKING MAD ..... SOON I WILL REALLY TALK TO WALL ...... IF I GOT DEPRESSION IS ALSO HER BLOODY FAULT ...... SHE IS THE ONE THAT MAKE ME HATE HER ...... SHE REALLY BLOODY TORTURE ME .... SHE GAVE BIRTH TO ME BECAUSE SHE GOT NO CHOICE ...... MY DAD LOVE ME ...... SHE DUN ...... I DID LOTS OF SELF REFLECTION ..... I REALLY DUNNO WHAT I HAVE DONE WRONG ....... I REALLY DUNNO .... i wish i can sleep until die ...... or someone hate me kill me ...... got enough of this ..... PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME! i just need a hand to help me .... please dun leave me

2009-06-30T00:48:00.003+08:00

Sometime i really wonder ..... did my mum bring me to this world suffer? my dad is the world most kindness man ...... he love me more den anything .... and i never lie to him before ..... for my mum is so different case ...... she can scold me for no reason ....... i never talk to her more then 30 minutes before ..... when i am not lying to her ...... she will say i lie ...... WTF! i really dunno what fucking wrong with her ...... and i will NEVER EVER close with her ..... i really wish to move out of this FUCKING HOUSE ...... dun wish to be with her ..... i know some people will say that your mum just care for you ...... that why she will scold you ..... the problem is i dun feel care from her ..... i think i going mad again ..... her mood swing is unpredictable ......

2009-06-26T02:11:00.002+08:00

After raining there will be alway rainbow ..... so please look on the bright side of life =D look out for the rainbow after a heavy rain ...... Love all of my friends

2009-06-25T23:20:00.004+08:00

Yesterday work was a hell for me ....... standing there like HUA PING ...... weekdays really got no customer ..... yesterday meet Kpher and Ferris for Sub Way .... before i start work ...... and when i was working .... both of them was playing lan and going bugis to eat ...... after work went to Cafe Cartel for snacks ...... sad to say the cakes are all sold .... today nearly late for work ..... keep going Paragon to take stock ....... holiday left 1 more week ...... haven do POA and BEV ..... SO SAD ~~~ holiday end so fast ..... no mood for school ....... SCHOOL SUCK!

2009-06-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

PHOTO!

2009-06-22T23:31:00.004+08:00

Went out with Kpher and Ferris today ...... HAPPY! reach home around 10.30pm ..... i know is early but at least i get to go out with them ...... went to Hong Kong Cafe for lunch ..... after that walk around Orchard ...... went to Grand Cathay and had BEN & JERRY ..... head to park lane because Kpher and Ferris want to play Lan ..... they were playing so HIGH and i sleep until so HIGH also ...... went i woke up .... they still playing ....... but i see the game like quite fun ...... just that i dun like to play Lan Game ..... had Subway for dinner ...... tmr Kpher is working and Wednesday i will be working -.- SIAN~~~ Wednesday Thursday and Friday i will be working ...... mean cannot go out with Ferris and Kpher ...... when i hang out with Ferris and Kpher i feel very happy ..... really happy ..... i hope the happiness will never die .....

2009-06-21T01:26:00.003+08:00

Photo time!

All photo is taken by ME!

2009-06-21T00:38:00.002+08:00

Thanks to my brother i am out with Ferris today ....... told mum i was out to do my BEV project ..... had lunch at CS food court .... after that went to watch "DRAG ME TO HELL" ...... the movie freak me out! the sound is so POWER MAN! after that went to do BEV project ..... went to Toy r Us ..... dad fetch me to find Baby Reuben ........ went to AMK for dinner and find Kpher too ..... brought shoes, short and ear ring ...... ha ha aiming for IP zone jacket now ...... ha ha i want to buy so many things lor .... anyway got dickies bag for sweetheart ...... LOVE IT MAN ~~

2009-06-20T01:40:00.006+08:00

I'll be your love

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

There's a time

You feel like you're lost

Feel the night will never end

Through the daybreak

It's hard to hold on

But there is tomorrow

Brings you to your senses

As the sun will make it's way

You'll make it there

To the place where reality and dreams

And love will be together

I'll keep the light from fading

If the clouds blind your way

And the wind sways your faith

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

Let me see you smile

Don't you cry

Over the past

Some days might be gray

And dreary

Not easy to leave

To leave it behind

'Til the rain stops in silence

I'll be there to hold your heart

I'll be with you

'Til you find the reason for love

We take it for granted

We'll keep the time from fading

''cause the world is here to stay

Your hope is deeper than pain

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

If you would believe

Believe in the world

A vision of love

And the strength inside your heart

You'll find a way

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

*For Ferris Aw

2009-06-20T00:38:00.002+08:00

At home the whole day ...... never leave my room ....... only went to toilet and went to drink water ...... spend my whole day on bed ..... curtain close lights off ....... quite dark ...... but still can see the sun light shiny thru my room curtain ....... got force to get out of the room during dinner time ...... feeling so fuck up ....... the whole day i keep find things to do ..... really find things to do .... but i end up sleeping on bed ...... staring at ceiling ...... MIX UP FUCK UP ....... REAL OR DREAM!

2009-06-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU

2009-06-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

Can anyone tell me what did i done wrong that cause my mother keep scolding me ....... scold me for nothing and i mean it really NOTHING ..... dun let me out ..... going home late is not allow ...... what hell did i done wrong? i really dunno ........ this few days i keep cry ...... because of me ..... friends around me also get affected by me ...... they cannot hang out late because of me ..... i need to go back home early ...... i scare i will lost my friends ..... really scare ...... locking me up is not the way to make me listen to her ....... it only make me hate her ....... I SWEAR I REALLY HATE HER ....... Sorry my friends ...... i cannot hang out anymore ...... soon i will go crazy and talk to wall ..... i had no want to talk to FACE TO FACE ...... i cannot talk to my friends ...... CANNOT GO OUT AT ALL ...... ha ha guess i need to talk to the wall ...... thinking of running away from home .... but i cannot ...... my dad told me this "If you dun care about your mother is fine ..... but think about me ... how will i feel?" after hearing what he say ..... i cry ~~~

2009-06-15T22:05:00.004+08:00

Overdue photo ...... BUT THE GUYS IN THE PHOTO ARE STILL HOT!!!!

HOT GUYS FERRIS & KPHER

FERRIS

KPHER

2009-06-15T15:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went out with Ferris ...... went back to Taka to take my staff card ...... holiday had to go back and work .... SIAN ~~~~~ dun feel like working but got no choice ...... Jack Jack need help ...... went to visit Lyn at OC ..... her sales was bad ...... brought a polo shirt from her ...... after that shop around plaza sing ..... brought a key chain ..... DAM NICE and CHIO ....... after that went to meet up my parent at my aunt house ..... sorry Ferris cannot have dinner with you ...... went to collect my passport .... NIGHTMARE so many people ..... i am like NUMBER 40 in the queue lor ...... wait until nearly die ..... when is my turn ..... OH GOSH! nearly faint ........ photo so UGLY ....... after that head to bugis and back to tampines ...... had fish soup for lunch ..... now blogging at grandma house ....... going sleep soon ...... tired and bored ...... dunno what time i will get back home ...... hope ASAP!

2009-06-14T22:49:00.005+08:00

Yesterday Class Outing was fun and tired too ...... many things happen and i think i lost someone that is close with me ...... feeling scare ...... anyway tmr going to collect my passport .... visit grandma ....... feeling tired and my shoulder is killing me ...... tuesday still need to go sentosa for some stupid event ....... and BEV project ....... POA homework .... OMG ~~~~ many things to do man .....

2009-06-10T22:28:00.001+08:00

Yesterday when to watch Monster Vs Alien with Kpher and Ferris ....... 3D! and kpher fall asleep in during the movie ..... after that we walk to Bugis to had Pepper Lunch ....... and as for today ....... took cab to school ...... CMS test in MLT ...... got my new lappy and i name it Blackie Junior ...... after school went to airport with Kpher and Ferris ...... walk around and chat den went back home ........ feeling tired ...... so so tired ....... TIME OUT FOR STEPHANIE HONG .....

2009-06-08T21:31:00.002+08:00

Holiday coming soon ....... this will be my last week of school ..... this sat is AA class BBQ ..... hope we can had a good time together and know each others more ..... today after school meet Kpher and Ferris .... we had dinner and after that we shop around TM and T1 ...... tmr having POA test ....... today cash book test .... tmr petty cash test ..... and Wednesday CMS test ....... after CMS test .... i got BEV project CMS role play and POA project ..... my holiday also seem like school day ...... busy with projects .... i miss TAN TING TING ....... and LICKY

2009-06-06T01:12:00.003+08:00

Thursday Doll Domination is COOL! Nicole voice is really very powerful ..... the most sad part is i did not get to see Jessica ...... she got injure and went back to rest ..... Singapore Indoor Stadium is so SMALL ..... got no comment to it lor ...... so DAM SMALL! anyway OFA test was good ...... think can pass .... may be not an A .... but C or D ...... ha ha for me i pass can already ..... went VIVO went Kpher Ferris and Beverly ....... played pool and arcade ...... after that went to eat dinner ..... head back home after that .... reach home at 12.45am ..... feeling about sad now ..... i really need time ..... please give me some .... i promise i will not let you down .... i swear .......

2009-06-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

Want to know my BEV result? ...... i can tell you mine result now ........ FAIL! ..... my whole body is aching and i cannot do my paper well ...... whatever i study go down the drain ~~~~ thanks to Napfa ....... making my body so tired and i cannot concentrate during exam ....... head pain to the max ...... after school went to Bugis with Kpher and Ferris ....... Kpher wanted to get memory card and i finally get my mouse ...... SIM LIM is like a maze ...... we got lost in there ..... after that went to shop around Bugis and had dinner at some Japan Restaurant ...... and after the waiter help me refill 2 TIMES of my water ..... i realise there is a INSECT in my WATER .... OMG! I FEEL LIKE PUKE MAN! anyway ........ DOLL DOMINATION is coming in less then 24 HOURS TIMES!!! WOOHOO~~~~~ LET GET HIGH AND SING OUT LOUD!!!!

2009-06-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

First lesson was BEV .... Mr Chong was busy so we had free lesson ...... and today CMS become BEV ...... Mr Hari was revising BEV with us ...... such a nice CA i have ..... LOVE HIM MAN! after school went Expo for food fair and the sales thing ...... nothing much to see ..... got cheated man ..... had Subway with Connie Kpher and Ferris ..... we seem to be the noisiest in Subway ...... feel sick now due to my flu ...... and head pain ..... BEV is killing me ...... anyway PCD is coming soon!!! happy happy ~~~~

2009-06-01T01:22:00.002+08:00

Now is 2am ..... and i am still not sleeping ...... anyway went to study at StarBuck ..... after that went Vivo to watch movie ....... when i reach GV ..... i nearly faint ...... the queue is so long man ...... watch Night At The Museum ...... so funny ..... and the monkey is so cute ....... after that walk around Vivo den went back Tampines to eat mac ....... i feel so sick with mac ...... i eat mac because i want to get the cup ...... anyway this week going to be a busy week ...... PCD coming soon ..... 4 June ..... 3 more DAYS ....

2009-05-30T23:34:00.003+08:00

5 MORE DAYS TO DOLL DOMINATION!!!!!
anyway yesterday work at Taka instead of Paragon ...... Ferris accompany me to work ..... den he went off to cut hair ...... 6pm to 10pm ........ i was all alone at the counter ...... Gio Gio was so piss off went she saw me alone ..... she call Jackson and complain to him ...... after work Ferris came and look for me ...... HA HA ~~~~~ his new hairstyle is killing me ...... make me laugh NON STOP ...... ha ha CANNOT TAKE IT ANY LONGER! as for today ..... went STUDY with Ferris ..... ha ha and i know what cakes i should buy for Alyssa le ...... went to Expo Fair Food ..... so many people man ...... after that went home and meet Cousin for dinner .....

2009-05-28T22:50:00.004+08:00

Feel sick in morning ...... mood is so not right ...... anyway today get to eat subway with Kpher and Ferris ...... the subway people really make me laugh la ..... haha SOR NEH! haha ...... WTH~~~ thanks to kpher ..... i keep laughing la ..... anyway reach home today by 7pm ....... GOOD GIRL RIGHT? tmr will be working ....... Jack Jack call me and ask for HELP ........ 5pm to 10pm ......

You are My Destiny

2009-05-27T22:39:00.002+08:00

POA test was good today ...... think i can pass? ....... i dun ask for more ..... hm mm a B will do ...... now i really really had to worry is my BEV ..... OMG BEV IS LIKE A KILLER!!!! i will try my very best to remember everything and understand everything ...... i dun wish to disappoint Mr Chong ...... anyway today went to watch movie with Ferris ..... we watch UNINVITED ....... IS BLOODY SCARY !!!! FREAK ME OUT MAN!!!! anyway came back at 10pm ...... my mother keep scolding me non stop ..... so piss off by her ...... now she expect me to come home everyday before 7pm ...... I MISS MY BALAM ROAD HOME ...... i want to move back to my aunt house ...... i am like drifting away from my OWN mother ........

2009-05-26T23:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!

OK she is not my mummy ...... but she is my aunt ...... when the day i came to this world ..... she look after me ...... i love her more den anyone ....... she just like my real mother ...... she is the one that make me want to study and want to earn LOTS of money ...... i want to give her a very good life ..... buy her big house ....... bring her to many many country ...... how i wish she can be with me forever ....... every time i saw her ..... i feel that she is getting older ...... when i see the way she walk ..... i feel like crying .... her leg is getting weaker and weaker ...... but the truth is ...... one day she will leave me ..... she will go to the heaven and become angel ...... I LOVE YOU MUMMY